The question that always on my mind ~

what's the point falling in love with someone that never really love you ? what's the point failling in love with someone that still miss her/his EX ? what's the point failling in love with someone that always talk about her/his EX infront of you ? what's the point failling with someone that doens't care about you ? what's the point you drop  the tears for someone useless in your life ? what's the point you throw the money for someone that only love your money ? what's the point loving someone that only want having sex with you ? what's the point waiting for someone that already taken ? why it hard to find a true love ?


All this question always on my mind when something goes wrong when im fall in love with girls ~ i got many experience and couple with a girl in different age .. only one girl that i will always remember what she told me and teach me about love.. even though only 4 days we together but her advice's make me grow up as adult ~ honestly, i really weak and easy to fall in love with someone ~ im not strong that everyone thought ~ im always say, "YES, IM OKEA" actually im not okea.. im in pain and heart broken, i just hide it because i dont want anyone know about it ~


im useless, i dont know how to care a woman heart. im sucks because my heart really easy to fall in love with someone.. i really selfish because i always think about myself and not think about girls heart.. ~


if you really wanna know that she/he love you.. if you ask her/him to let you go, she/he will not do that but if she/he say, OK. that mean she dont really love you. trust me.. i really good in love and experience it ~ If she/he let you go with a good reason that mean she think and care about your future ~If without reason, that mean she dont care about you ~ trust me, my EX 2 years older than me.. before we break up. she told everything why she want break with me and give me an advice and courage ~ she said, make this a wonderful experience so that if you meet a girl older than you.. You know already how to think and handle her ~ i will always remember these words ~ <3